Hello.

It's been so many months since my last entry, during this time I could have easily gone to different corners of the world and back but well..I didn't.

What I have done is something simpler. Just a journey to learn more about myself. I feel really different now, a lot lighter in fact. The people I have met along the way, the experiences I have encountered everything help :)

I managed to accomplish some of my goals of course I still have many more ahead of me! I finally built my computer that I have been meaning to built, got a new phone + tablet and all. Enough about the physical gains, I think what matters most is the mental or emotional gains that I have reaped in my course of this "journey".

I can safely say that I am quite grounded, in the emotional & mental aspect - not that I was a total nut job in the first place! I have come to terms with everything that has happen, is happening and will happen in my life. Kinda awesome, nope? I recall very clearly that I claim to know, but finally I am clear between knowing and understanding.

To know is not to understand, to know is just be aware. To understand is to be aware and comprehend, took me quite awhile to realize that. For now, I am really happy with where I am, I couldn't have wished any better but I am not stopping here of course! This is a start for me and being positive isn't something that is temporary any more.

End of October.

So what are the big things that happened for this month? Nothing much. Went to the zoo, had a steamboat dinner with the Lee's, finally applied for SUTD, have my own workstation at WDA, went through a life-changing experience over the weekend @ TAM.

Convinced my dad to buy a storage bed and some new shirts and currently in the midst of successfully psycho'ing both my parents to get a Galaxy S2 each. I still haven't receive my remuneration from work, hopefully it'll reach by the end of next week. Oh yeah, managed to further optimize my crappy Acer Liquid. I know I complain alot about my phone, I have always had a love-hate relationship with Acer but the good news is that someone is working to port ICS to the Liquid!

I swear that I WILL get my hands on the ASUS transformer pad prime and a BOSS GT-8 by the end of this year and clear any outstanding. Another year has passed, well almost passed but still! It's really fast!

Whoa.

One word titles are awesome, it gives you ambiguity and lots of room for digression. But I would prefer to have 1 word fortune cookies, that way they will be concise bullshit. Straight to the point, no fuss.

Imagine you break one and the message you get goes like "Lady luck smiles upon you, from rags to riches you will become." That's utter bullshit. Whereas something like "good", "bad", "lol" or ":)" just saves time.

On a side note, I have no idea what this post was dedicated to and that the title of this post bears no relation with whatever junk I have just written.

Seriously, I can't remember what I wanted to blog about in he first place.

Lost.

I am trying to find my way in life.

I am trying to find my future career.

I am trying to find myself.

I am trying to make you happy.

I am trying to not blame myself.

Above all, I am trying not to fail.

And yet, no progress has been made.

I am still stuck here.

:D

Thank you, you made me feel alot better like you always do. :)

Egocentric.

Its just me.

It really is.

...

Fuck.

Can't sleep.