Gut wrenching not due to excitement. Thought it was over just 15 mins ago, but guess not.

Beads of sweat, cold sweat breaking out furiously. Suck it up man, suck it up.

Can't really recall the last time I was this sick, or whatever it is that's going on with me.

I hope I'll be able to wake up on time in the hours to come, let's just say tasting food from a reverse order isn't exactly great. And repetetion is a killer.

If this keeps up I guess I have to report sick tomorrow. Argh, feel so miserable and shitty.

Feels like I've left something behind, though can't quite put my finger on it. On the other hand inferiority complex is catching up for lost time. And on top of that itunes is being such a bitch.

I want to know what I have been doing since 7 weeks ago, then I want to know what I will be doing from the next day onwards. Can't say I know the answer for both question. Don't evening know what has happened for the last 3 years, seems like waking from a dream. You know something has happened but everything's a blur.

Still tinkering with itunes, running through all the old songs and sorting out stuff. Found really old stuff, brings back the nostalgic feeling. I've got "Innocent" by our lady peace, playing in the background.

One day
You'll have to let it go,
Oh
One day
You'll stand up on your own, you'll stand up on your own
Yeah
Remember losing hope,
Remember feeling low,
Remember all the feelings and the day they stopped

Gone through that in my head one time too many. I need to find more distractions, at least something safer and legal. Since my guitar feels rather dead, and I can't seem to get any inspiration out anymore.



Counting down the days, counting down the hours.