A new circle

So all our work has paid off, I feel so light now. Everyone is so inspired, motivated and passionate, let's just hope it lasts. A better understanding has been forged, misunderstandings cleared between everyone.

Now that everyone is strong, it is time to move! For us, there is a need to step up, why? If no one wants to, then who will? We all need to play our part, we all need to give back alittle. We have come so far, braved the rainy days and stormy nights but now the skies are clear.

And yet, we are still far from finished. Instead, another chapter awaits us all. Until, everyone returns.

To this place, this family in which we will have to build up from the foundations laid by the pioneers.

I just remembered: When doing up the previous post, I was drifting in and out of sleep.

Not going to make any changes to it, why? A reminder to myself that sleep is indeed important. Finally, a few more days to go to Ex Lions. And yet, we are still not prepared. Not because we didn't put any effort into planning. I would say there are too many minor details we are not able to point out, simply because there are just too many.

60 : 8

try to guess the significance behind the numbers.

By tonight, I really want everything to be finished. I don't want any planning or last minute adjustments to eat into our stipulated relax and chill time! We have allocated some time for all of us to relax and by FSM we will!

Need to rush out a good story by tonight, I really hope this story line can replace the current one. Less prep and less manpower needed. Genius. Thank you technology!
I should be getting my MAG in about half an hour's time, can't wait heh!

3.5 × 30 × 5 = 525

That's the amount of sleep in due in hours.

10 × 20 × 5 = 1000

that's the amount of money spent for meetings/ recce.

9 × 24 × 5 = 1080

Is the number of hours spent planning.

15 × 20 × 5 = 1200

Is the number of emails sent while planing.

I just went to wash my face, only to realise the sad state that I am in. The whole week I have stared at the mirror for at least 10, but it is only now that I my skin is getting worse and my eyebags are like 2 swift

punches to my eye sockets.

I never noticed nor did I pay attention, until now. Why are we doing this? Where's the energy to  continue? I want to thank everyone for giving up time to support and help us out. Sorry, if I have offended you in some way or another.

Sorry kevin dude, for being in-your-face hostile and negative. You really caught me at a bad time. I need sleep like now, my eyelids are closing in their own.

Thanking everyone for putting up with my crap!

Maaaaaaaggy!

The title is unrelated by the way. So many things not done yet! Problem is we can only do it at home or SBM, mostly SBM. Gonna miss this year's IT fair, no big deal since I am not looking for any new gadgets.

Argh, haven't even got time to enjoy the GSS fully! I was hoping to pick up some new clothes but seriously no time! I will most likely go shopping on 22 june, gave myself some vicky time after Ex Lions. Hopefully, it will be enough to cover 1 month's spread of shopping! Wishful thinking I might add.

Time to update my wishlist/ to do for this month:

- second longshot

- selling off my PSP

- cosmetic mods and spray painting for my armoury

- update wardrobe MK II

Beta testing completed!

This weekend was a killer, early consecutive early mornings and late nights. We should have been resting! Well, like ZM said, this is the first time in history we are having a beta test session! Something new to us and also an achievment.

Funny how we appear to have planned everything well, but in our eyes we are still unprepared and still have a lot to do. It is good to see people willing to step up and take the challenge of taking up important roles.

I hope everyone can learn something new and also gain confidence, this time round I learnt the power of documentation haha. Although it is hell tidious, thanks to technology replicating documents are wayyyy easier.

Just a short update, should finish up this post before I.enter the tunnel. Cheers!

TGIF

So it's Friday, the past few days have passed rather fast. Squeezed in time for my guitar, spent a nice evening with xinyi. Quite a productive week I must add, with 90% of the documents for camp lions done we just need to settle logistics and the beta test coming this Sunday.

So far, we have put in so much effort to make it a success. Thank you everyone, those who have took time off to help out and those who stood by supporting us. We started off earlier but met with multiple major set backs.

It's been fun as it has been brain draining. So much ups and downs, we definately bonded and understood each other better now. After next week, its full time break and then its off the EX Lions.

Man, we haven't had a good nerf lately. I have been dying for a nice round!

Irrational and emotional

I have observed my biggest weakness. Seen the drastic change from positive to negative to positive, pray tell when will negative come. I am ruled by emotions, I am ruled by my feelings. This hinders my judgemnt greatly, but I can't that over night.

Maybe I don't have the concentration, I don't have the patience and lack the awareness. If this is so, I have a long way to go. I am biased, flawed and rash. Knowing it doesn't solve anything, it may only be the start.

Why? I don't know. Why? I don't know. Why?

What happened to me? Why am I stuck in this slurry of mixed emotions? It's so sudden. I don't even know what is the cause, or is there even a cause.

I have no reason to despair, no reason for anger. I can't answer my own questions, not even when this shit will stop.