To 2.

I don't get the chance to see things from your side, even if I do it's on rare occasions. The many times you listened as I fell asleep, the many times you slept late because of this.

I am not angry, but rather sad. I put you through alot, you put up with so much. The times I misunderstood your actions, the times I gave up so readily.

I am truely sorry, I really am.

Good night.

Whoa, it's been 2 months since I have been here.

2 Months? Alot of things have changed, for better I guess :D

Camp is drawing closer, it's almost near the half year mark for 2011.

Have I done anything significant?

Different people would have different standards, and normally I would agree that I have indeed accomplish quite a lot. Not the case this time 'round. The under-achiever in me is ready to call it quits and be contented, but somehow a voice is telling me to do more. She's pushing me to do things I wouldn't do, telling me to do something else.

She's pushing me to put aside anything to do with self-interests and be more active, she's telling me I can do more. For all my life, I have been putting in borderline effort in most if not all of my tasks. I guess it's a good time for change, this got me to notice that there are certain things which I've put in more effort than I realize. And these things seem so effortless only because I find joy in doing it.

The main reason would probably be the company of friends, with great support keeping me going and fueling my passion without me even knowing. Granted, that it wasn't all smooth sailing but considering the fact that everything went well and I, myself had a great time and gained much more experience, there really isn't anything to complain about.

It's been awhile, since I felt that energy. I can't recall when this lack of...drive began. It doesn't really matter now since I am working to get back on track, and also I have found my portable battery pack :3

Enough of the reflection, 'cos its time to look ahead! Onward!