Turned the world upside-down,

blinded and locked all senses,

unaware of my presence, you stood within my gaze.

Laughing and cheering wholeheartedly,

at screens intensely hued,

mesmerized and nostalgic, you stood within my gaze.

Bittersweet memories ripple in abundance,

with salty tears welling in my eyes,

the pain of remembrance of whence, you stood within my gaze.

As I retreat so slowly and surely,

so secretly and so silently,

cowardly stealing one last glance, you stood within my gaze.

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Just so much I want to know.

To start all over, if there's a chance.

You appear at the strangest of times.

Give me a break, just for once.

Never did forgive myself.

Lost my mind, lost my sight.

Trying hard just to forget.

Praying for the day, I might.

Harbouring second thoughts so carelessly.

Adversely, you had quickly dismiss them.

Wake up now and cool your head.

Before you grind your heart to sand.

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I didn't want to spoil your day, nor did I have any intention of causing you any worry.

It just became so hard for me to give you a genuine smile.

It took me so long to muster what little courage that was left just to say hi.

Wished for the world to stop, so I can hold you just once more.

My heart sank when you look so shocked and in disbelief, as if I had returned from the dead.

My words had no meaning, my throat was dry but I forced out a conversation.

Mixed emotions beyond my comprehension surged throughout my body.

Shaking and trembling trying my best to appear as normal, acting all casual.

Couldn't hold back my tears no more, tears of joy or hurt remains unknown.

You left without a word just as before, what more could be done?

Sick and tired of this cycle, as well as being sick in the head.

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I hate to admit it but it doesn't matter.

I hate myself.

I hate myself.
I hate myself.

Stupid.

I love you.

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Oh it's the best thing that you ever had, the best thing you ever ever had.

It's the best thing that you ever had, the best thing you have had has gone away.

In your house, I long to be.

Room by room, patiently.

I'll wait for you there, like a stone.

I'll wait for you there, alone.

There's a part of me, you'll never know.

The only thing I'll never show.

Hopelessly, I'll love you endlessly.

Hopelessly, I'll give you everything.

But I won't give you up, won't let you down.

And I won't leave you falling, if the moment ever comes.

It's plain to see it's trying to speak.

Cherished dreams forever asleep.

Hopelessly, I'll love you endlessly.

Hopelessly, I'll give you everything.

But I won't give you up, won't let you down.

And I won't leave you falling, if the moment ever comes.

Hopelessly, I'll love you endlessly.

Hopelessly, I'll give you everything.

But I won't give you up, won't let you down.

And I won't leave you falling, if the moment ever comes.

When will this end/start? Please tell me.