One step at a time, slowly.

Nah its nothing big really, been thinking alot lately and maybe alittle too much. I think it is safe to say most of my worries are really redundant, or even harmful to a certain extent. People around me, as my mirror, reflect my actions and decisions. How am I to see myself without my mirror?

I guess I should really stop worry and focus on what's important. I still have no idea why I have been limiting myself, and I acknowledge the fact that I am still am. Well, it really has to stop.

Half the year has gone past already, there's still more to come. I have one last step to take before I can safely say that I have started anew. Just 1 more month.

Just a few words.

You may be far away, is it night or day?

In batam, in a room, deep in slumber?

Rest well, body and mind, let the stress unwind.

Are you relaxed, are you less stressful, I wonder.

Good night :)

If you are wondering why I am blogging at this hour, yeah I am.

From my office that is.

Just a week away from 4 months worth of preparations, and hopefully it would be better than last year! After that, it's going to be a month away from my freedom and a long awaited break. I miss having a life, which includes technology.

I've decided to rest today since I would be running around a lot tomorrow! We are gunning for the top prize!

To 2.

I don't get the chance to see things from your side, even if I do it's on rare occasions. The many times you listened as I fell asleep, the many times you slept late because of this.

I am not angry, but rather sad. I put you through alot, you put up with so much. The times I misunderstood your actions, the times I gave up so readily.

I am truely sorry, I really am.

Good night.

Whoa, it's been 2 months since I have been here.

2 Months? Alot of things have changed, for better I guess :D

Camp is drawing closer, it's almost near the half year mark for 2011.

Have I done anything significant?

Different people would have different standards, and normally I would agree that I have indeed accomplish quite a lot. Not the case this time 'round. The under-achiever in me is ready to call it quits and be contented, but somehow a voice is telling me to do more. She's pushing me to do things I wouldn't do, telling me to do something else.

She's pushing me to put aside anything to do with self-interests and be more active, she's telling me I can do more. For all my life, I have been putting in borderline effort in most if not all of my tasks. I guess it's a good time for change, this got me to notice that there are certain things which I've put in more effort than I realize. And these things seem so effortless only because I find joy in doing it.

The main reason would probably be the company of friends, with great support keeping me going and fueling my passion without me even knowing. Granted, that it wasn't all smooth sailing but considering the fact that everything went well and I, myself had a great time and gained much more experience, there really isn't anything to complain about.

It's been awhile, since I felt that energy. I can't recall when this lack of...drive began. It doesn't really matter now since I am working to get back on track, and also I have found my portable battery pack :3

Enough of the reflection, 'cos its time to look ahead! Onward!

Khanti, I has!

Usually in such situations, I would have blown my top off long ago.

The funny thing is that I am calm :)

Guess its because of you, you always calm me down, make sure I don't do anything rash.

Thank you so much :)

Love you so much, hcssaxyxy!

BlitzKrieg

Starting something is always the hardest part but when you gain momentum, everything slowly starts becoming easier and nothing stands in your way.

Of course, once you come to a halt you'd have to start all over again. Let's all keep the ball rolling, keep the page alive and running! Most of all, keep the clicking and the typing :)

Operation BlitzKrieg commence!