End of October.

So what are the big things that happened for this month? Nothing much. Went to the zoo, had a steamboat dinner with the Lee's, finally applied for SUTD, have my own workstation at WDA, went through a life-changing experience over the weekend @ TAM.

Convinced my dad to buy a storage bed and some new shirts and currently in the midst of successfully psycho'ing both my parents to get a Galaxy S2 each. I still haven't receive my remuneration from work, hopefully it'll reach by the end of next week. Oh yeah, managed to further optimize my crappy Acer Liquid. I know I complain alot about my phone, I have always had a love-hate relationship with Acer but the good news is that someone is working to port ICS to the Liquid!

I swear that I WILL get my hands on the ASUS transformer pad prime and a BOSS GT-8 by the end of this year and clear any outstanding. Another year has passed, well almost passed but still! It's really fast!

Whoa.

One word titles are awesome, it gives you ambiguity and lots of room for digression. But I would prefer to have 1 word fortune cookies, that way they will be concise bullshit. Straight to the point, no fuss.

Imagine you break one and the message you get goes like "Lady luck smiles upon you, from rags to riches you will become." That's utter bullshit. Whereas something like "good", "bad", "lol" or ":)" just saves time.

On a side note, I have no idea what this post was dedicated to and that the title of this post bears no relation with whatever junk I have just written.

Seriously, I can't remember what I wanted to blog about in he first place.

Lost.

I am trying to find my way in life.

I am trying to find my future career.

I am trying to find myself.

I am trying to make you happy.

I am trying to not blame myself.

Above all, I am trying not to fail.

And yet, no progress has been made.

I am still stuck here.

:D

Thank you, you made me feel alot better like you always do. :)

Egocentric.

Its just me.

It really is.

...

Fuck.

Can't sleep.

To do/ buy list for the rest of 2011

Okay, so it took me less than 5 mins to realize that alit of things in my room and my life has been at a standstill for close to 2 years. Thanks to NS. I have alot to do, like really alot.

First up, I already did a major packing of my room a few months back. And yet, it is still not enough. This time round, when I say packing I mean throwing out worthless junk that I have kept for more than 5 years thinking I might use it someday. Oh yeah, I need to make full use of my drawers in my cupboards and empty the ones in my table.

Next up, buying new clothes. I think underwear should be given more priority, since some of the elastic bands on my current ones have totally lost their elasticity. And ah crap, I keep forgetting to send my black jeans for alteration. Eh..since 7 months ago.

Plus, I am badly in need of shirts, especially dress shirts.

And since the death of Mcspazatron, I haven't been able to do any work on the go. All I have now is a fancy paper weight, which has a working LCD screen and RAM. I took out the hard disk and converted it to a mobile hdd the moment it officially died, so yep. Prolly going to save up for a tablet with a physical keyboard dock.

Then, I recently discovered some problems osqccurring very frequently on my desktop. My desktop is already obsolete in computer-years, and it might not be easy to replace certain parts. I estimated the resale value of my current rig, and it would fetch me about...$300 if I am lucky. Not to mention, the only thing I can salvage would be the casing. Thus, it is better to keep it as a spare PC or server and get another one. Argh, more savings are needed.

So yep, that's what I would be focusing on and hopefully I would be able to achieve these goals by August or September!

GSS X 2

So that's prolly 2 GSS's I have missed, for 2 years straight. And for that same 2 years,its due to Camp Lions. Not that I mind though. Its just..I have saying that I have been wanting to update my wardrobe but yeah.

Buying clothes for me is rare, unless they fall under the category of militia peripherals. Not stuff that you can get from E-mart or beach road, stuff that Singapore doesn't sell. And no, they aren't illegal.

Ah fudge, hate it when I try to blog from my phone only to see half of my post saved. Too lazy to retype so yep, that's all.

Hopefully, I can get some nice clothes by this Christmas! Although I won't mind getting a ghillie suit heh. In just less than a month, I will be back to civilisation and of course catching up with technology! So until then, my liquid will suffice!

GSS X 2

So that's prolly 2 GSS's I have missed, for 2 years straight. And for that same 2 years,its due to Camp Lions. Not that I mind though. Its just..I have saying that I have been wanting to update my wardrobe but yeah.

Buying clothes for me is rare, unless they fall under the category of militia peripherals. Not stuff that you can get from E-mart or beach road, stuff that Singapore doesn't sell. And no, they aren't illegal.

Hopefully, I can get some nice clothes by this Christmas! Although I won't mind getting a ghillie suit heh. In just less than a month, I will be back to civilisation and of course catching up with technology! So until then, my liquid will suffice!

One step at a time, slowly.

Nah its nothing big really, been thinking alot lately and maybe alittle too much. I think it is safe to say most of my worries are really redundant, or even harmful to a certain extent. People around me, as my mirror, reflect my actions and decisions. How am I to see myself without my mirror?

I guess I should really stop worry and focus on what's important. I still have no idea why I have been limiting myself, and I acknowledge the fact that I am still am. Well, it really has to stop.

Half the year has gone past already, there's still more to come. I have one last step to take before I can safely say that I have started anew. Just 1 more month.

Just a few words.

You may be far away, is it night or day?

In batam, in a room, deep in slumber?

Rest well, body and mind, let the stress unwind.

Are you relaxed, are you less stressful, I wonder.

Good night :)

To 2.

I don't get the chance to see things from your side, even if I do it's on rare occasions. The many times you listened as I fell asleep, the many times you slept late because of this.

I am not angry, but rather sad. I put you through alot, you put up with so much. The times I misunderstood your actions, the times I gave up so readily.

I am truely sorry, I really am.

Good night.

Khanti, I has!

Usually in such situations, I would have blown my top off long ago.

The funny thing is that I am calm :)

Guess its because of you, you always calm me down, make sure I don't do anything rash.

Thank you so much :)

Love you so much, hcssaxyxy!

Day 30 odd 50

One last entry, to end this nicely.

There was you, there was time with you.

There is, however, something more important than you.

For you alone, just remains the same as before. With nothing special and things remain unchanged.

I not only think of you, I also think of us.

Day 29 plus plus plus plus!

I have mentioned time before but this time is different, because it is time spent with you!

Time spent with you.

It doesn't matter what we do, it doesn't matter if nothing is said because time spent with you is special.

Time spent with you.

Day 28 plus plus plus :3

You.

Yep, you.

You put the smile on my face.

You put my laughter in place.

You make my world, you are my girl!

You colour my days.

You follow me at my pace.

You make me me, as how I make you you!

Just you.

Yep you.

Nobody but you! :D

Day 27

Mega uber family reunion dinnah!

Day 26

Twice today, it occurred. It may not be much but it brought smiles, brightened my day and put me in a good mood.

I was walking to the station when the rain grew heavier, I had to stop and wait for the lights to change. In front of me stood a lady holding an umbrella.

She turned around and told me to quickly get under the umbrella and not to fall sick. It might have been just a small gesture of kindness, but she was really sincere.

The walk was short but even a little kindness goes a long way :)

Day 25

There are some things that occur even when the odds are obviously against it. No one can explain such occurrences, neither can one predict such incidents.

Probability, you can be so random at times.

Day 24

Today is just another day, while walking back from lunch I realised how cold of is outside.

I didn't bring my jacket, although it wasn't really that cold. Now as I wait in a small room, the little pitter patter sounds of raindrops gets shut out as the glass door closes.

Windy days just makes me smile.