Contentment? Nowhere near where I wanna be. I ain't complaining for I am very much satisfied with where I stand. Don't think I can change much within such a short time, but that how it just is. Something will happen eventually, good or bad? Who's to say as of now? I can't help but feel a tinge of confusion, is this in any way wrong?

Back to square 1 but at least I am able to speak now. It just takes some time, nothing can be achieved within a shotgun blast. Then again, people will point out that I do what I know I shouldn't. I want to scream out to the world, I don't care many time I keep saying it. It's meaning still stays the same with every repetition and do my feelings.

I am aware of the self-induced craziness, and yet it can't be controlled. I don't want to crash and burn again, but the possibility of which keeps on rising inevitably. Is it alright to turn a blind eye to the outcome? Would it be okay to dwell in ignorance? I fear. I reject. I wait. I repeat.

Note: I am being as ambiguous to the core for a good reason.